Would Have Been...

Today would have been my 17th year anniversary with my job. Instead, it was the first day of my new life. You would think that I would be over it by now, but it still hurts. Even though, I am settling into my new role as a homemaker and enjoying my time with Jayden and Maya, I can't help but think of what would have been.

I first came to Florida because of this job. When I first applied, I was shot down and when I applied the second time, it was not my idea. It was because my friend dragged me to the information session. And when I got the job and he didn't, I was stunned. I thought about the gigantic change it mean for me and considered declining the offer. But I took that fateful trip from NJ to FL and it turned out to be a wonderful experience for me. I can't imagine what my life would have been like or how I would have turned out had I stayed. I only know how grateful I am that I did come because it helped shape me and make me who I am today.

Still, seventeen years is a long time. I was so hoping to make my 2oth anniversary and earn my ring. So very disappointing.

Have I ever been committed to anything for so long? Let's see. It took me 14 years to graduate from college. I've owned my home for 13 years. I've been married for 8 years. I've had my car for 7 years and my dog for 5 years. And I've been lucky enough to be blessed with Jayden for 4 years and Maya for 2.

Yes, seventeen years is a long time. But that chapter of my life is over. And now, God willing, it's time to see what the next seventeen years bring.