Weaning Maya

Some of you might be surprised, but Maya is going on 17 months and I still nurse her. I was down to twice a day, morning and bedtime. At the time when I was weaning, I chickened out and stopped the process when I got down to two feedings. I wasn’t ready yet. With absolutely no prior thought, I woke up yesterday and decided to stop the morning feeding. I mean, I have to wonder how much milk she’s actually getting from me to begin with. Last I checked it was less than two ounces. And now, I have no clue at all because my pump broke. Because of that, I was only nursing her 4 mornings a week anyway. So I gave her a bottle, which I normally do every morning anyways.

Yesterday, I was up early so when she woke up, I had her bottle ready and everything was fine. Today was a different story. I was slightly awake, but I was still tired and battling a headache so I decided to stay in bed. (Big mistake!) Maya woke up crying, like she does most mornings. I went to get her and when she noticed that I wasn’t laying her in bed with me to nurse, she started to wail! I was so mad at myself for not having that darn bottle ready, but I got it together as quickly as possible. I started to warm it up in the microwave and she finally settled down and came over to wait for it, just like Jayden does. So cute!

I know she’s not going to drink my milk forever, but she’s such a daddy’s girl. Nursing is truly the only time I have her undivided attention and it’s all about us, just us. I don’t want to let that go. Not just yet anyway.